In the dream, my freedom was taken away from me I was scared and helpless I struggled and i managed to wake up in sweat
I was in the lousiest mood for the whole day I wanted to tell you but you ignore I wanted your concern but you were so cold Maybe its my fault that i expect too much from you I have no idea what i can do to turn back time I can't even see my future now
The feeling sucks breathless.lost.helpless
I just want you to hold me in your arms and say you wouldn't leave It seems easy but i know its hard But you can't just pack your baggage and leave when you feel like it I don wanna be the abandoned casualty left behind after the battle
How long must i hold on before i can see the light again?
I wonder I seriously wonder
e n v y
Posted At 4:49 PM
Envy
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Friday, July 21, 2006
.:Happy Birthday:.
Happy Birthday to you Happy Birthday to you Happy Birthday to JustinBao Happy Birthday to you
A year older liao Should be more mature and sensible Although i'm not the person walking beside you now but i sincerely hope that happiness will always be with you
I just want you to be happy May god bless you and best wishes!
Love, -Lines-
Van -Fang Sheng
e n v y
Posted At 6:12 AM
Envy
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Thursday, July 20, 2006
.:E Judgement:.
How many percent will you take someone's word when she says she will never leave? When she says she will stand by you no matter what? But she might leave you behind when you needed her the most How impressive
In relationships Be it between friends or lovers Its all about balancing If one side always see themselves as the giver and expects more in return from the receiver They can never be happy, never content Is it really the case that the other party had never give anything at all? Purely receiving? I seriously wonder
Finally after 2 weeks, Its the judgement day I have to go back to the place tomorrow morning 10am Hope everything will be fine
I have people i love standing firm and strong behind me I may not have the time to meet everyone I may not have he time to really update everyone But i know they still loves me Thanks for all the firm hands which supported me unconditionally, preventing me from falling I'm glad that i have all of you
I really love you guys!
Don worry I will update you guys once i'm done tomorrow ok
Till then, Pray for me, everyone!
Tata~
e n v y
Posted At 7:11 PM
Envy
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Monday, July 17, 2006
.:E countdown:.
Listening to Pussycat Dolls - Buttons
4 more days I'm going back To receive the verdict My fate
I'm hanging in the air So wanna hold you back Yet refused to be your burden Dilemma.Confused.Contradict
Here i am Calm on the outside Havoc on the inside
I so wanna smile again Can i?
e n v y
Posted At 11:14 AM
Envy
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Saturday, July 15, 2006
.:Meaningless Post:.
Femme Quest @ Zouk on Thursday night isn't that fantastic afterall Everybody was bitching about the contestants At least i got the top 3 right although not in the right positions la Haha
I went Guan Yin Temple at Bugis to pray and got myself a 'qian' It says:- "Yin and Yang in perfact harmony. heavens agrees. bride meets groom in matrimony. the strong complement the weak. Interpretation : Good Do as you plan. in marriage a male offspring, forune and crops increases."
A GOOD one Hope things will turn out fine next friday
I just couldn't sleep well since last friday Tensed.Stressed.Heaty Result : Swollen Gum Grrrrrrrrrrr
I can't talk properly, can't eat peacefully I think i can be more "sway" one lor Make me pek chek only
Popping painkillers and going to bed now Still awake since last night
Tata~
e n v y
Posted At 12:39 PM
Envy
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Monday, July 10, 2006
.:Scapegoat:.
Life isn't a bed of roses There are times where it lifts you up high up that you almost touch the sky Yet at the same time It can simply give you a hard kick and send you crashing down the ground Leaving you no strength, no time to retaliate
One word to describe my world now CHAOS Yes. Chaos.
One word to describe my life now HELL Hell. Yes.
I dunno how and why i landed in this BIG puddle of shit I just know that i'm at the lowest point of my life for 24 years Betrayal.Framed.Scapegoat.
I was lost and helpless I wanted so much to cry
My friend Jo wong told me
"Crying is a sign of weakness. proves guilt. be strong"
"Don't like tt. take it as a revelation of your true friends"
"I think by now you should know alot of people out there are poker faced n hypocritical"
"Its things like these which make us stronger. believe in karma"
Lastly
"Don worry. innocent till proven guilty"
I'm glad that i still have the people i love standing by my side Love me.Support me.Trust me I hope i can pass thru this ordeal soon Everyone, Pray for me
